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[Dec. 17th, 2008|03:44 am] |
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rain. it comes and goes, and there are nights where the rain falls so heavy, you are unable to escape from the sound of the raindrops pounding on your rooftop. imagine if every drop represents a memory - someone's biggest regret, the passing of a loved one, the feeling of helplessness, the unfulfiled wish. we are only human, put together by skin and bone. and the day we cease to exist, we end up as nothing more but a passing memory. though our bodies have left the world, the rain will still fall, every single memory and cherished moments in our lives have dissipated into the clouds. so everytime it rains, our existence will be embraced and remembered by someone, and it is in these moments, we are immortalized.. if only for a passing second. |
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[Dec. 15th, 2008|04:33 am] |
hello~ finally i've decided to blog. been pretty apprehensive about everything lately, even bashing myself to make a decision if i want to blog or not. and so after reading theresia's blog, and knowing she has so many new updates, i feel ashamed that my last update was in JULY. and so, i have came to the decision to do so (blog, that is).
of late, my mind has been running around in circles, thinking, pondering, anticipating, questioning and waiting. i want to GO and DO so many places/things, but the thing is, i am rooted to the grounds of singapore. and it sucks so much to know i'm being caged up. i feel like i have a mountain of repression pressed against my chest and i can't do anything about it, why? because i have to abide by a law created by my country, to protect the nation from some war that is never going to materialize. but what does it matter? there are billions of people in the world, wanting and wishing so many things as well, but wanting something you know you can never get sucks, i know the feeling, the other billions of people know the feeling. i hate it. they hate it. EVERYONE hates it. but what can we do? laws huh, they are created by people who are just like us, who believe that what they are creating is the best choice, and knowing what they say is absolute, these common-folk-given-power-to-control-and-ABUSE-their-authority, start creating strange strange rules, us, POOR-POWERLESS-common-folk-who-have-no-say-in-anything, have to abide by. democracy is just a smokescreen to make us feel less powerless. fellow common folks, please realise that! but if i rebel against these powerFUL people (yay, let's grab our torches!), i would either find myself behind bars, or six feet under... probably the latter.
but at the end of the day, on a certain breezy moonlit night, i sit by my bed, look out of the window and stare lovingly at the moon who stares lovingly back with her warm glowing yellow face, and realise that i make up a tiny insignificant space in a tiny little country (the world's SMALLEST country) which is actually just a minute detail (in fact, a DOT!) in the entire earth that is nothing but a tiny piece of rock that is floating in the greatness of outer space which is only a fragment in the eyes of GOD who lives in the great and almighty heaven that is probably so huge, we have to use the infinity symbol to represent how large it truly is. and that my friend, is how lousy i feel. can you believe it... i am nothing!! WE ARE NOTHING!!! |
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[Jul. 29th, 2008|02:08 am] |
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i want you,
or no one,
no one else will do.
you,
or no one,
for no one is the only one,
to fill the empty space i hold for you... |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2008|05:29 am] |
life's been pretty smooth sailing of late. i've been busy filling up my sketchbook and experiemnting stuff on canvas, working, running errands, writing music and of course chilling with my homies. tomorrow, motay's family are heading back to nepal, i'm gonna miss them for another two years. i actually pulled out from an exhibition i was suppose to have on the 26th due to some breakdown in communication. it's pretty sad actually, but i sure hope i would get a slot in the final series of this exhibition, because i've been working on the wrong theme for the upcoming one, once again, communication breakdown... but still, do check out the show on the 26th at haji lane. my friends will be taking part in it. ok it's like 6am, i've gotta hit the sack, tata. |
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[Jun. 30th, 2008|03:19 am] |
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| | rie fu - i so wanted | ] |
i had a dream i was standing in the sky, my mind is void of any emotions,
before me were a sea of clouds that float aimlessly amidst a veil of blue,
above me were an endless field of multi-coloured stars against a purple velvet sky,
below me were an array of mountain peaks that stretched infinitely across a green plain,
and i just kept crying like i've never cried before.
i wish my world was this ideal. |
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[Jun. 28th, 2008|03:11 am] |
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| | coldplay - green eyes | ] |
at swayambhu while we were doing our rounds.
what i'm working on now.
i think my camera is too tired to focus, haha pun!
i'm afraid it's really hard to see the texture.. oh well.
will pose a clearer one next time, when the camera and i are less exhausted.
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[Jun. 22nd, 2008|02:15 am] |
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| | heart - all i wanna do is make love to you | ] |
yo. i'm having a bad block now. i don't know what to write about, my sketchbook has not been touched since nepal. how? |
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[Jun. 15th, 2008|02:16 am] |
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| | jason mraz and colbie caillat - lucky | ] |
i'm blogging here in the hotel in KL, i just came back from meeting a couple of strangers. my dad is wasted and i can hear him snoring in the next room. i returned from nepal last week and i'm already planning my next trip up to conquer the annapurna circuit and everest base camp. and to visit manang again! i miss that country, jai nepal!
apparently, with the words of stephanie, i've been nepalized. haha, and i'm proud of it. i also realise all i ever talk about is nepal this and nepal that, heh. i miss motay who is still in nepal. i miss kunga and everyone else i met there, especially ahem ahem ;). i wanna go back NOW, but alas, the army beckons me and i cannot visit my lovely nepal for another 2 years. i will wait and dream of nepal every night till the day i am back in the kathmandu airport.
anyway, i've decided to start painting again after looking at a shitload of paintings, and i realise i've kinda forgotten that lovely feeling of paint on canvas. and i'm really bummed i couldn't be there to watch the degree show. i heard it was pretty awesome, lots of those phantom works (works that were done at home and never seen before) were surprisingly impressive.
i'll be back on monday, and i lost my numbers, so message me if you want me to have your number in my phone, it's the same number. goodnight. |
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